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Full well could Fanny guess where his thoughts were now: Miss
Crawford?s power was all returningHe had been speaking of her
cheerfully from the hour of his coming homeHis avoiding her was
quite at an endHe had dined at the Parsonage only the preceding
day
After leaving him to his happier thoughts for some minutes, Fanny,
feeling it due to herself, returned to MrCrawford, and said, ?It is
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not merely in temper that I consider him as totally unsuited to myself;
though, in that respect, I think the difference between us too
great, infinitely too great: his spirits often oppress me; but there is
something in him which I object to still moreI must say, cousin,
that I cannot approve his characterI have not thought well of him
from the time of the playI then saw him behaving, as it appeared to
me, so very improperly and unfeelingly?I may speak of it now
because it is all over?so improperly by poor MrRushworth, not
seeming to care how he exposed or hurt him, and paying attentions
to my cousin Maria, which?in short, at the time of the play, I
received an impression which will never be got over
?My dear Fanny,? replied Edmund, scarcely hearing her to the
end, ?let us not, any of us, be judged by what we appeared at that
period of general follyThe time of the play is a time which I hate to
recollectMaria was wrong, Crawford was wrong, we were all wrong
together; but none so wrong as myselfCompared with me, all the
rest were blamelessI was playing the fool with my eyes open
?As a bystander,? said Fanny, ?perhaps I saw more than you did;
and I do think that MrRushworth was sometimes very jealousNothing could be more improper than
the whole businessI am shocked whenever I think that Maria replica prada fairy bag could
be capable of it; but, if she could undertake the part, we must not
be surprised at the rest
?Before the play, I am much mistaken if Julia did not think he
was paying her attentions
?Julia! I have heard before from some one of his being in love with
Julia; but I could never see anything of itAnd, Fanny, though I
hope I do justice to my sisters? good qualities, I think it very possible
that they might, one or both, be more desirous of being admired
by Crawford, and might shew that desire rather more unguardedly
than was perfectly prudentI can remember that they
were evidently fond of his society; and with such encouragement, a
man like Crawford, lively, and it may be, a little unthinking, might
be led on to?there could be nothing very striking, because it is
clear that he had no pretensions: his heart was reserved for you
And I must say, that its being for you has raised him inconceivably
in my opinionIt does him the highest honour; it shews his proper
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estimation of the blessing of domestic happiness and pure attachment
It proves him unspoilt by his uncleIt proves him, in short,
everything that I had been used to wish to believe him, and feared
he was not
?I am persuaded that he does not think, as he ought, on serious
subjects
?Say, rather, that he has not thought at all upon serious subjects,
which I believe to be a good deal the caseHow could it be otherwise,
with such an education and adviser? Under the disadvantages, indeed,
which both have had, is it not wonderful that they should be
what they are? Crawford?s feelings, I am ready to acknowledge, have
hitherto been too much his guidesHappily, those feelings have generally
been goodYou will supply the rest; and a most omega seamaster titanium watch fortunate man
he is to attach himself to such a creature?to a woman who, firm as a
rock in her own principles, has a gentleness of character so well adapted
to recommend themHe has chosen his partner, indeed, with rare
felicityHe will make you happy, Fanny; I know he will make you
happy; but you will make him everything
?I would not engage in such a charge,? cried Fanny, in a shrinking
accent; ?in such an office of high responsibility!?
?As usual, believing yourself unequal to anything! fancying everything
too much for you! Well, though I may not be able to persuade
you into different feelings, you will be persuaded into them, I trust
I confess myself sincerely anxious that you mayI have no common
interest in Crawford?s well-doingNext to your happiness, Fanny,
his has the first claim on meYou are aware of my having no common
interest in Crawford
Fanny was too well aware of it to have anything to say; and they
walked on together some fifty yards in mutual silence and abstraction
Edmund first began again?
?I was very much pleased by her manner of speaking of it yesterday,
particularly pleased, because I had not depended upon her seeing
everything in so just a lightI knew she was very fond of you;
but yet I was afraid of her not estimating your worth to her brother
quite as it deserved, and of her regretting that he had not rather
fixed on some woman of distinction or fortuneI was afraid of the
bias of those worldly maxims, which she has been too much used to
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hearBut it was very differentShe spoke of you, Fanny, just as she
oughtShe desires the connexion as warmly as your uncle or myself
We had a long talk about itI should not have mentioned the subject,
though very anxious to know her omega seamaster orange sentiments; but I had not
been in the room five minutes before she began introducing it with
all that openness of heart, and sweet peculiarity of manner, that spirit
and ingenuousness which are so much a part of herselfGrant
laughed at her for her rapidityGrant in the room, then??
?Yes, when I reached the house I found the two sisters together by
themselves; and when once we had begun, we had not done with
you, Fanny, till Crawford and Dr
?It is above a week since I saw Miss Crawford
?Yes, she laments it; yet owns it may have been bestYou will see
her, however, before she goesShe is very angry with you, Fanny;
you must be prepared for thatShe calls herself very angry, but you
can imagine her angerIt is the regret and disappointment of a sister,
who thinks her brother has a right to everything he may wish
for, at the first momentShe is hurt, as you would be for William;
but she loves and esteems you with all her heart
?I knew she would be very angry with me
?My dearest Fanny,? cried Edmund, pressing her arm closer to
him, ?do not let the idea of her anger distress youIt is anger to be
talked of rather than feltHer heart is made for love and kindness,
not for resentmentI wish you could have overheard her tribute of
praise; I wish you could have seen her countenance, when she said
that you should be Henry?s wifeAnd I observed that she always
spoke of you as ?Fanny,? which she was never used to do; and it had
a sound of most sisterly cordialityGrant, did she say?did she speak; was she there all
the time??
?Yes, she was agreeing exactly with her sisterThe surprise of your
refusal, Fanny, seems to have been unboundedThat you could refuse
such a man as Henry Crawford seems more than they can understand
I said louis vuitton wallet what I could for you; but in good truth, as they stated
the case?you must prove yourself to be in your senses as soon as
you can by a different conduct; nothing else will satisfy themBut
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this is teasing youDo not turn away from me
?I should have thought,? said Fanny, after a pause of recollection
and exertion, ?that every woman must have felt the possibility of a
man?s not being approved, not being loved by some one of her sex at
least, let him be ever so generally agreeableLet him have all the
perfections in the world, I think it ought not to be set down as
certain that a man must be acceptable to every woman he may happen
to like himselfBut, even supposing it is so, allowing Mr
Crawford to have all the claims which his sisters think he has, how
was I to be prepared to meet him with any feeling answerable to his
own? He took me wholly by surpriseI had not an idea that his
behaviour to me before had any meaning; and surely I was not to be
teaching myself to like him only because he was taking what seemed
very idle notice of meIn my situation, it would have been the
extreme of vanity to be forming expectations on MrI
am sure his sisters, rating him as they do, must have thought it so,
supposing he had meant nothingHow, then, was I to be?to be in
love with him the moment he said he was with me? How was I to
have an attachment at his service, as soon as it was asked for? His
sisters should consider me as well as himThe higher his deserts, the
more improper for me ever to have thought of himAnd, and?we
think very differently of the nature of women, if they can imagine a
woman so very soon capable of returning an affection as this seems
to imply
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